Hello my name is Cynthia
I have used this forum before. I did not become a member I just browsed for the same questions I had and found great results here.

I am not really sure where to post this, but here it is.
I did what I could that is all I can say.

When I was 15 I learned to play the guitar to help out my community because we did not have a Spanish choir. So I learned the basics and started to play at church in Spanish.

2 years ago my priest asked me if I can go and help another community who needed the help. I have learned to be obedient so I did go there.
It was a mistake.

I got there and like many Spanish communities, they were disorganized, and there were a lot of negative things in that community.

I found out that the priest there had their community abandoned and only celebrated masses and would confess, but for anything else he had two people who represented him and were in charge of everything there; they were not nice people they were actually very mean and very controlling.

I wish that the Spanish community would be better. For example in the choir, the Spanish community does not really care that much about the choir. They don’t care to learn anymore. They don’t know how to read music and can’t carry out a tune (they are tone deaf). I have always felt that I have been the odd ball. Trying for my fellow Spanish community choir members to learn to play and sing by note as it sounds way better. However, they refused.

So I started the choir. I tried to teach them what God had given me, but they were not really trying as much as I would like them to have tried. In two years they were not able to learn the basic chords in guitar…they just did not have that kind of discipline nor did they give the instrument enough practice time. This annoyed me and I told them to please do their homework and study. They did not get better; in two years you would think that they would know at least the chords, but they did not know.
I had no support from anyone.

Then just a few months back I had this lady in the choir who tried to boss me around. She learned a bit and was trying to boss me around in a very mean way. I am 25 now and no longer a teen, but an adult. I told her to stop commanding me to play what she wanted; especially in the rude way she did.
She hated me for that.

Then she and another choir member accused me of being too harsh. They said I needed to have more patience. It really hurt because when they want they leave the ministry; I had to play by myself because they did not go for one thing or another. The ministry to them is not that important yet they accused and criticized me for not having enough patience.
It is true though that I do not posses patience. I can’t seem to love people the way they are especially when they are mean and say hurtful things to me.

I had no support from the father there. He did not support me. I told him I had been having issues and if he could help. Yet he did nothing about it. He actually supported this controlling annoying freak lady.
I left. I quit. That is all I could do. I told the father I would leave and he said Ok thank you.

I feel bad that I quit and left things that way, but I just had no support.

I hope that God never again sends me to the Spanish choir community.

So I am back at my old parish and wish never to be involved in the Spanish choir.

Right now I am just taking a break and having more time with my family. In the future I hope to join the English community members instead.

So what do you guys think?

I feel so bad, but at the same time relief.
Too much choir drama for me and my heart could not take it anymore.